So this was a year in the life of a couple attempting to adopt

A year ago today we decided to embark in this roller coaster of a journey into adoption.  I am so glad we were ignorant to all the dealings and challenges that come with the process or, being perfectly honest, I might not have gone through with it. Reflecting on the process thus far, I am remembering how uninformed I was about the whole thing.  A year ago today I was picturing an Angelina Jolie adoption, you know, the kind were you just tell a country you want to adopt and they are handing you sweet babies for you to take home and become and instant family.  Apparently that is not how it works.  In January of this year we chose an agency and began the process but no matter how fast you take this journey you are still spending a year inundated with paperwork, evaluations, web classes, and government clearances.  The minute you realize how difficult, complicated and stressful the process is you are way too deep and you are way too invested in it to turn back.  This is were you realize that, as Robert Frost says “the best way out is always through”.  So we soldier through no matter how painful it gets, always reassuring ourselves that this will be over soon and it will all be worth it when we are meeting our kids.  As of right now we still don’t know how much longer it will take and frankly I don’t want to know.  If its a little bit more I will stress over preparations, if its too much I will become discouraged, so I am ok with the unknown.  Still haven’t mention this to too many people and although I am more willing to talk about it with those who already know I still find it difficult to share it with others.

I am not too much of a fan of country music but I will leave you with these lyrics from the chorus of the song STAND by Rascal Flatts.  I heard it once during a hard part of our journey and I still feel its fitting for all of us who are going through this adoption process with no end in sight.

‘Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you’re made of
You might bend, ’til you break
‘Cause it’s all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you’ve had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you stand,
Then you stand

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